Some things about me:
I am 35 (I still remember when 30 was old – name that song), married to My Farmer in Kansas. I grew up in a great little town, and live a couple hundred miles from there now. My parents are farmers too, so I have no excuse. I knew exactly what I was getting into when I married him.
We have three children. Our oldest son, Shooter, is eleven. Farmer Boy is nine, and Little Cowgirl is six. I never really understood what it would be like to love my children until I had them. It is an all-consuming, obsessive-compulsive, stalker sort of love.
Our family’s style has evolved slowly. We are like everybody else: We don’t really fit in a category. Sometimes I am pretty crunchy. I like to make most of our food from scratch and I used cloth diapers (most of the time). I don’t really attachment parent, but I do use a lot of techniques that are “AP.” I loved breastfeeding and did so for years with each child. I loved to wear my babies and never felt it was good for my infant to cry. I also found that rigid schedules did far more to stress me out than anything else. We started homeschooling a few years ago and it has been a great move for us. I am trying hard to be an intentional, connected parent and to live intentional, connected life.
The title of my blog is meant to signify my approach to mothering and life. I have let go of the image of perfection. I am just myself and that is close enough. I’m doing my best and make mistakes every day, but it is close enough. I really can’t ask any more from myself and I have forgiven me for not becoming what I imagined motherhood to be like. Sometimes being a grown up sucks. But sometimes it’s better than I ever imagined. The title is also meant to signify the relationships I am trying to build in my life – I don’t want an “arms length” type of friendship, family, spouse. I want to be close enough to all the people I love. So I will plod through my days sharing some thoughts with you, hoping to make you think and laugh.