Yesterday My Farmer stopped in, between haying jobs, to have supper. After the meal the children disappeared outside while their father and I continued to ‘cuss and discuss’ (as he would say).
The hay was still calling, so eventually I walked him out to his truck. We could hear happy, distant voices after I kissed him goodbye, so we wandered out toward the barn to see what was happening. This is what we found:
Their words were spilling all over one another in their mad rush to tell us all about the game they were playing (hint: it involves Star Wars) and my heart was so full with love for them…for everything about them. I had one of those moments where time stopped, where I became certain I would always remember how I felt in that instant. Somehow I sensed I was putting away a memory I could take out time and again (and again and again) as the years go by, as I grow older and they grow old – I can bring it out and remember just how I felt. I can feel that happiness again.
This doesn’t happen very often. The last time it happened to me was the week my Little Cowgirl was born. My grandmother came from Vancouver to stay with me. The boys were two and four. We were sitting on my porch, watching my boys play in the grass while I nursed my infant daughter and shared a snack together. My grandmother asked me for the recipe for the banana bread we were eating. I will never forget that moment.
I was absolutely sloppy with happiness to be sharing the ‘forever’ moment yesterday with my husband.
I looked at My Farmer and choked out “Look at them. Aren’t they just fabulous? We are going to miss this SO much.”
He never took his eyes off of the children he made with me.
“I already do,” he answered.
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Well, thanks for making me all sniffly!!
I know what you mean by ‘those’ moments. I’ve had a few myself and it always makes my heart full.
Beautiful! I wish those moments would last forever!
Oh, Jessica~ I love this!
Jess – I do the same thing. Sometimes, I just stop and watch Mason, now 6. He may be playing, giggling, watching tv or just sleeping and all I can do is watch and smile. There have been numerous times I have been at work or traveling and I just miss him. I go to facebook to pull up pics to make me laugh or I call him up to say hi. The biggest moments are when he is sitting on his papa’s lap laughing away at one of their inside jokes…that makes me fill with happiness! Great blog post!
Blessing, Blessing, Blessing! Thanks for sharing the reminder.
We have moments like that too…where I instantly fall back in love with my hubby all over again. We just look at the kids; how awesome they are. Maybe it’s when my son makes his baby sister laugh. Or when they are both playing together in their room. Sometimes it’s when they are both fast asleep… I’m holding back tears, while my hubby just smiles. SUCH an amazing feeling.
Oh Jessica, you are so very good with painting a picture and making others feel like they were a part of the moment and what a very sweet moment it was. Thanks for sharing the special love that you and your family have for one another. WOW
These moments do last in our hearts. The children may grow up and older, but there are always still moment that I treasure forever. My oldest doing situps with his first baby boy sitting on his belly, and little Will belly laughing the way three month olds can. My youngest with his baby boy, snuggling a crying Oskar into his neck and tenderly crooning ” You don’t want to cry, you’re okay.” and such endearments until little Ozz stopped crying. My oldest with cake everywhere, his first tastes of cake, chocolate. It was even in his tiny socks!
My youngest, a fuzzy yellow sleepered baby boy “vroom vrooming” his cars in the hallway, his soother dangling by its ribbon. Your heart just has to grow larger with love as you collect all the memories! It will. Those perfect moments will stay there.
Tears quickly came to my eyes as I vividly remembered yesteryears when my children were small. They are great memories. You are a great writer and I truly love to read your blogs….
This is the first of your “blogs” I have read. It is so good and so true. I am touched, and I needed it today. Thanks, sweetie. Love you!
So beautiful, if only we could find a way to freeze those moments.