The funeral services for my mother-in-law were one week ago.
They seem like a month ago.
The grown-up children, as well as their own children, appear to be dealing with the loss as best as can be expected. Holy cow, we miss her. And it’s going to take a long time to get used to life as it is going to be now. She is not here anymore, and despite the relief that comes with the end of her suffering, it still sucks.
Looking back over the last several months put everything in a different perspective – thinking about how everyone put their shoulder to the boulder together and pushed for all we were worth. We did everything we could, and at least we can look back and take satisfaction in that.
I left early this morning to work out. Going into the YMCA was like seeing an old friend – but OH MAN I think the track is longer than it was three months ago. I was home before darkness lifted and I’m ready for a busy day of school, band, martial arts and tutoring. Life is so short, and I want to fit everything in that I possibly can. But I also don’t want to miss anything with all the busy-ness. This whole experience has renewed my commitment to gentle, attachment-style parenting – to praising good behavior rather than punishing, to helpful discussion rather than shame, to unconventional lifestyle outside of the mainstream because that is what is best for my family.
I’m hoping this week to finally get those first-day-of-school pictures up, as well as answering Delena’s question about where religion fits into our homeschool. Also, I need some feel-good from you all. What have you done recently that’s been good for you or brought you joy?